Speaking of little kids that rock my freaking world.... i have one of the best friends in America, her name is Jamie Smith... below.... Rylee is the adorable little one above!!!
ok where was i.... oh ya Jamie... i have to tell you that jamie is probably one of my oldest and dearest friends... i met her in seventh grade when my elementary and hers joined together at NLJH!!!! She was most def the most popular girl in school, and she befriended me with no questions asked!!! she took me under her wing, and she didn't know then, but i did, that she was my saving grace.... Jamie has been there through jeeping in MOAB, we were both the first ones to turn 16 so we drove everyone EVERYWHERE. and we loved it... we had stomps in the target parking lot.... we TP'ed the crap out of everyone and he house was the place to be!! (thank you Laurie)
well it was time to graduate and she went down to SUU and i to USU while she was away she met this freaking amazing man named Steve! They got married and i loved him instantly... they then had a baby a few years later and named her Rylee Jo Smith.... this little girl is the best!!! she has the freaking best personality and Steve is going to have to beat the boys off with a stick!!!! (as you can see)
Well with growing up, comes grown up problems.... what i wouldn't give to have a good old dance in the target parking lot.... well in 06 i got divorced... and it was the lowest part in my life, but Jamie was there and so was Steve, they didn't judge me, they didn't look down on me and thought that i failed.... they just opened their big open arms and hugged me as tight as they could... and at a time when i couldn't feel more empty and alone... Jamie was there with her smile and her incredible optimism, Steve was there with his huge engulfing hugs and then there was Rylee... she was the best therapy there was.... When going through something like that, you feel, alone, ashamed, embarrassed, a failure, and that no one needs you in the world... and there was Rylee... she let me hold her, and she clung to me and slept on my chest... she needed me... and i needed her.... i needed her mom and i needed her dad and the Smith family will never know how much they mean to me!
they were and still are a HUGE light in the darkness and i know that in them i have not only great friends... but i have family!!!
Thank you Jamie for being my friend and my sister for so long.... Steve, thank you for always being there for me to talk to, to joke with and for your hugs when i needed one most!
And Dear little Rylee, thank you for giving me hope... and faith that i didn't fail.. somethings are just not meant to be. and restoring in me my self-worth... You are so tiny and so small... but you do amazing things.....!!! i love you all!!!
4 comments:
Erin that is so nice what you wrote about Jami. She is such a good friend, and I feel so lucky to have her my life too! Thanks for reminding me of how awesome she is.
Jaclyn
WOW! okay... That was the sweetest, most unexpected thing I have ever read... I don't even know what to say? other than that totally made me cry! and cry again! I LOVED it- I LOVE my amazingly thoughtful friend Erin, I am so blessed to have HER in MY life! WOW.. I think that sometimes it is the things like this that are one those tender mercy's that let you know you ARE worth something! Do you ever feel like you're just so chaotic, and wonder if your even doing any good? or think your a bad mom- a bad friend? and sometimes wonder if you just Suck at life? Well, it's these sweet innocent kids, and wonderful family, and friends- like Erin- that bring you back. I needed THIS more than you'll know. I am grateful to have been given the opportunity to be there for you Erin, and share my family with you. I know that things work out the way they do for a reason. There are NO MISTAKES in our Heavenly Fathers perfect plan for us... God is only one man, so we were all put in each others lives for a purpose, to answer each others prayers! It is not just me who helped you- You blessed my life more than you will know as well!!! I am thankful for YOU, and for your humbling post. Thank you Ern, Love you!
Jamie Jo:)
Erin, good to hear from you. I don't think I've seen you since Thriller... wow that was forever ago. What a crazy thing this internet is to keep us all in touch! This is a sweet post you wrote about Jamie. So are you married? Congrats! It looks like everything is going great!
Erin oh Erin,
Thanks for giving my awesome wife and family some serious love on your post. You're an amazing friend to all of us. I do have to tell you that I'm secretly in love with this golf Pro that works at Wolf Creek, I think you know him???
Question: What if one of my best friends wrote this on his blog about me? Would that make us gay?....Not that there is anything wrong with being gay.
Love you Erin, thanks for inviting us to your mom's killer b-day bash. Best line of the night from Ryan "Want some more wine Connie?"
-Steve Smith
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